The true test is not whether you can access other realities, have connections to other worlds, sit perfectly in ceremonies, knows the right prayer, or access the guidance of divine masters.
The true test is whether you can sustain the vibration of Love amid life's most painful experiences and struggles.
Can you feel that love? Not the love of the romantic movies but a love much more painful and heartbreaking, and yet the only one that is ultimately liberating and freeing.
A Love that is so hard to re-discover and yet present in the web of all there is and the gaze of those searching for it.
Can you feel the full extent of the world's brokenness and your own in the same instant and not rush into any fixing?
Can you show up scared, wounded, and tired into the circle and gift your full experience to be witnessed without pride or victimization?
Can you let the sweetness of love and connections melt all the armored walls of pain built around your tender heart?
Can you meet with all your heart the mystery, the not-knowing, the invisible, and the infinity of the universe with the same joy as the presence of your own fragile and dying skin?
Can you feel the presence of God in the dirty dishes, the dying tree, and the compost pile?
Can you gift the turmoil of your anger, confusion, and separation to your altar without expecting anything in return?
Can you just be content with the gift of today’s breath without bringing any stories or desire for more?
Can you be so deeply embodied as a human being that nothing else matters?
Nothing will gift you more than this kind of presence and Love.
Nothing else will show you the invisible truth of all.
Angell Deer
